Gazillion Thanks + DIY Project Stud Crazeee!

First off, I want to thank everybody who took their time to leave comments on my previous post. Going through a break up is definitely not easy. He is still ignoring my calls and text messages. I don't know how long I have to wait but I'm sure I'll get by. I'm glad I have this blog and y'all, my blogger support group, to help me through this. I really appreciate your overwhelming support. My two precious cats are also comforting me as if they feel I'm hurting. Although I have friends, I am very discreet when it comes to matters of the heart. Why? Because the 'BF' shares the same set of friends - that I also met thru him. I don't really have a 'bestfriend.' I considered the 'BF' as my bestfriend...and now he's gone. As of now, I guess none of them knows what I'm going through. Only one close friend is aware of my blog (I don't think she checks it as much) and I haven't heard from her so I guess she's clueless as well. I hate to bug her coz I know she's tied up with her wedding preparations. Good thing I'm off this Thanksgiving week or else I'm gonna lose it at work! Since I had to be busy to keep my mind off of this craziness, I picked up a new hobby. I'm not a crafty kind of girl but since I'm obsessed with those studded jackets I've been seeing around, I started... DIY PROJECT STUD CRAZEEE My finished items: (Click photos to enlarge) As usual, my camera has been acting up and the gold and silver colors are not really showing well. a) Studded Blazer Up close b) Studded Cardigan c) Studded Skirt Up close d) Studded Tee Up close e) Studded Off Shoulder Shirt Up close f) Studded Leggings g) Studded Vest Up close Tools of the trade: (all from eBay) Hotfix applicator/wand 'I used the "Victoria Lynn Crystal Crafter" around $15 plus. It came with different sizes of tips for various sizes of hotfix embellishments. It also came with a hands-free support stand. The metal end of the applicator heats up pretty fast so be careful. I suggest getting this applicator for precise application. If you don't want to spend that much, your household iron will do. Hotfix studs What are hotfix? Hotfix are flat back embellishments with pre-coated heat-sensitive glue. They come in different sizes and shapes (e.g. swarovski crystals, rhinestones, pearls, metal studs). Usually sold per gross(144 pcs). For my project, I used mostly metal studs. I could have used the real studs with prongs on the back but it looks harder. I'm sure my hands will hurt putting the studs in even if I have the stud setter. Instructions: 1) Choose the correct size tip for the hotfix embellishment you selected. Sizes are marked on tips. Screw it into the unplugged applicator. 2) Plug the applicator. Pre-heat for about 2 minutes. The tip gets very hot so be careful. Do not touch the metal end. 3) Rest the applicator on the hands-free support stand when not in use. For Crystals and Pearls: Use concave tips 1) Place the crystal side up on your work surface (glue side facing down on the surface) 2) Vertically position the applicator over the iem and with a very light touch, pick up the item in the cup at the end of the the tip. Do not force the item into the tip. 3) Turn the applicator upright and wait for about 10-12 secs until glue gets shiny and starts to bubble. Time will be less for smaller items, and slightly longer for bigger ones. 4) Holding the applicator vertically, lightly tap the crystal/pearl onto the surface you want to embellish. The crystal/pearl will attach to the surface and slide out of the tip. No need to use extra pressure. Gentle touch will do. If it gets stuck in the tip, just insert a straight pin into the slot of the tip and gently push it out onto the surface to be be embellished. For NailHeads, studs, and irregular shaped objects: Use flat tips 1) Position the items (glue side down) in the desired design. 2) Using the correct size flat tip, hold the applicator vertically and apply a light pressure to the stud for approximately 10-15 secs. Larger items require more time. The top of the studs may get scratched if you move the flat tip while heating. You may use a press cloth or handkerchief between the item and the flat tip. 3) If the item appears lose, repeat the process. Happy Studding and Happy Thanksgiving Day! ***

Welcome to Heartbreak Hotel...

November 21, 2009

The weirdest thing happened today. I think I got DUMPED on our 4 yrs and 7th month anniversary. My bf and I are supposed to watch the movie 2012 in The Americana in Glendale, CA. We got the tickets for 8:15pm but we got there late and the theater was packed so we had to exchange them for the 10:25pm schedule. To pass time, we walked around, visited clothing stores, and had dinner. While waiting for our order, I checked my facebook account on his iPhone and showed him a photo of what I wore the night I went clubbing with my girlfriends...  It's that Gloria-V bodysuit from American Apparel that Megan Fox wore in Rolling Stones mag. You might have seen xppinx sporting the same outfit in her blog. Also the same outfit that I got a dispute with AA if you have read my previous blog entries. So the boyfriend got mad. He obviously didn't want me wearing revealing clothes and I did anyway. He said I never listen to him that I do whatever I please as if I'm single. In my mind I asked..What am I supposed to wear to a club? A turtleneck? After that, he refused to talk to me the whole time. I kept asking him and tried to explain but he wouldn't look me in the eyes as if I'm talking to a wall. After eating, we walked back to the theater, actually he walked way ahead of me. I was following him. He was so far ahead that I couldn't even catch up. I was deeply hurt coz It's the first time a guy did this to me. I am thinking of leaving maybe take a cab home or something but I still have the movie tickets with me so I just kept on following him. I saw him entered the theater and then I lost him again. So I went to the ladies room. I wanted to cry so bad I don't want people to see me and feel sorry for me, plus I don't wanna ruin my makeup. I know right? so vain even in a time like this. Then I went out saw him smoking a cig outside the theater. I gave him his ticket without saying a word then I walked back in. He wasn't coming in. I just sat there in the bench and waited. Still got 45 minutes before the movie starts. I was thinking of maybe calling my brother to pick me up if ever the bF leaves me there. I was deeply hurt because NEVER in my life did a guy treated me this way. Then I saw couples that are super sweet and thought to myself how lucky they are. I decided to wait more. Then the bf came inside 20 minutes before the movie starts. After maybe 10 minutes of not talking, he said he's sleepy and wanted to go home instead. So I gave him my ticket and he got it refunded. He walked out of the theater and there I was following him again. He walked way ahead of me. I saw him lighting another cig while walking towards the parking lot. I finally got in his car and waited till he finished smoking. Then I offered him the scented hand sanitizer (like I always do after he smokes) but he said he doesnt want it. Then he started the car and we were quiet the whole time driving on the way home. I leaned on his shoulder and tried to hold his hand but he said 'I'm driving!' I tried holding back my tears. He just wanted to drop me off the curb but I insisted he park his car and we should talk first. He refused and said he's sleepy and he'll just call me. What an excuse right? It's only like 10:30pm and he's sleepy! At this point I felt that it was over between us. But I don't want to leave his car. I wanted to hear it person. I wanted to hear and see him say that it's over! But he refused. I can see that he is really annoyed by me now at this time. So I decided to give up. I just said thanks for the dinner and happy anniversary and he just said okay. I thought to myself that this maybe the last time I'm gonna see him so I hugged him tightly and I whispered to his ear 'thank you.' I left and walked to my house. I started crying coz I couldn't hold the tears back anymore. I'm pretty sure he saw me. He stayed there until I got inside my house. I walked straight to my room and cried more. I waited for him to call but he never did. I sent him a text message after almost 2 hours..."You promised you'd call when you get home" but no reply. I'm still in shock and still trying to process what just happened. He can't just leave me because of wearing that damn outfit. Maybe there's more to it. I'm clueless to what he was thinking. I refuse to think negatively. I have no idea what to do. I have not seen this side of him until now. It's surprising after so many years of being with him. I never thought he would abandon me like that. So I guess that's it. I think just got dumped over stupid stuff. I searched for some fitting breakup songs online, found this and then cried myself to sleep... Pause @ 0:22 "Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities...because they somehow complete you" ***

Happy Hearts Day???

This must be the worst vday ever. Early in the AM, my bf's everyday car got stolen for the Nth time! Just last year his old drifting car got stolen too, a few weeks ago his stereo got jacked and now the whole car!!! I had to cancel our couple's spa massage appointment cuz he doesnt feel like goin anymore. I told him that it'll help him relax since he's been so stressed out but he refused so i aint buggin him on that. He still came to see me but he used his new 'drifing car' which is illegal to drive btw shhhhh! cuz of its super power engine and sh*t! y'all know how cops like to follow those souped up cars. So i wanna thank him for taking that risk.

i got flowers from him... i wasn't able to get him anything cuz the spa was supposed to be our gift for each other. It was just a chill vday so i didnt even bother to get all glammed up. it's also my parents' wedding anniversary and we had a lil get together at our place. We had filipino food and invited just some close friends over. So me and the bf just stayed home for dinner. We took some pics later and im surprised he even managed to do some crazy poses despite of what happened to him earlier... finally some serious pics lol! i hope y'all had fun with ur loved ones on this special day!

Shisem Lashes + Clubbing Look

Thanks to Mona aka Makemeblushhh, i got my very first Shisem Lashes from her makeup sale. i effin love it! One of the best falsies i've ever used. So sweet of her to include some samples on my order. Thanks hun! They say 'Darkness' falsies are almost the same. Does anybody know where else i can purchase shisem lashes? i can't seem to find them anywhere online =(

$4.00 each (plus $2 shipping) I wore this for my look last night @ the club. I can't get over on how much i love it lol! See slideshow below of the look I did...

MAKEUP USED L'egere BB Cream Smashbox Halo to set MAC Concealer + Benefit High Beam + Benefit Powderflage to set MAC Flip and Freshwater eyeshadows L'Oreal Lineur Intense Liquid Liner in 'Carbon Black' Shisem Lashes Dior Iconic Mascara NARS blush in 'Deep Throat' NARS blush in 'Luster' as bronzer NARS Multiple in 'Copacabana' as highlighter MAC Fafi Lipstick in 'Utterly Frivolous' ...and some pics from last night @ The Highlands club Group pic 1 Group pic 2 with the bday girls Kissy for bday girl #1 with bday girl #2 with bf with mah crazy ladies more camwhoring pics on my myspace page lol!